4.12.17

Picking "You" Out of the Blue

Friendship is a funny thing. You'd just pick them randomly and think "Ah, I like this one" and then you'd just start to hang out together. (unknown)

Relationship, too.

Or should I say, the wedding lock? The marriage?


Because I did it. Or I likely did it - because I don't believe in "accidentally". I found him one day,

1204 Days Before...

 and I was like, "That's him. That's my Mr. Darcy*." LoL.
Mr. Darcy's back is my favorite back.

You know I always believe that Allah gives us His blessing always. But His gift, especially "this", they come unexpectedly. Like when we started to stop wondering who is that one person who would be trapped with us forever (lol), and finally decided to stop being a hopeless romantic. Like this one. Like "you". I'm just picking you - not a "weenie-meenie-minie-mo" picking - but in a petrifying-sudden crush way. Like, "hey I like that one, he's gonna be an eligible candidate of husband for me". And then I forgot about him for a while until one day he asked about my "whatabouts", left me wondering constantly for a very long time. But it was stopped there. We never talked at all. He never showed up again until one day, this year, he asked me that word. Cringe? Ridiculous? Unbelievable? Believe me, I'm surprised myself, too.

I didn't left my left shoe on the floor in the middle of the night after dancing with you, or stealing your roses from your mansion hoping you would pick me as your lover. But here we are.
I was picking you out of the blue. And then suddenly after years, you decided to pick me, too.

Kami sudah berteman di Facebook beberapa tahun sebelum akhirnya saya menemukannya di sebuah kerumunan di resepsi pernikahan seseorang. Waktu itu sebenarnya saya sudah lama tahu dia. "Tahu" saja, karena untuk disebut "kenal" agaknya terlalu asing. Tapi sebutlah saya gila, karena melihatnya, menyelundupkan secercah harap dan damba. Sampai terucap sepenggal kalimat itu: tidak main-main, kepada ibu, saya membisikkan kata-kata pengharapan setengah melamun itu

Makanya lucu sekali ya, ketika beberapa tahun kemudian, ternyata dia yang memilih saya. Lucu juga karena saya bukanlah perempuan yang rajin menebar jaring-jaring selfie di sosmed (iya atuh da mukanya juga gak instagrammable atau fesbukable) - so pertanyaannya tentu seringkali "tahu saya dari mana?".

Tentu sekarang saya tahu jawabannya.


Bagaikan mimpi, konsep "jodoh" singgah dan betul-betul seperti dibilang orang. When you meet him, you'll know.

Kadang saya, juga dia, berpikir, 2014 itu 'kan sudah lamaaa banget.
"Mengapa tidak sejak saat itu, 'kita' ada? Karena persinggahan bukanlah sesuatu yang menyenangkan. Karena jika saja kita langsung bertemu, tidak akan ada drama lain yang harus hidup di antara tiga tahun sebelum 'kita'. Atau tahun-tahun sebelumnya."
Mari diam sebentar.

Kita sadar sekali, bahwa timeline kita, bukankah Allah yang mengatur? Rahasia-Nya, adalah skenario terbaik-Nya untuk kita. Kita bertemu dengan cara yang baik, dan semoga, akan berusaha yang terbaik untuk menempuh jalan yang baik. Maka mari kita lipat persinggahan itu. Kita sembunyikan ia di lipatan tiga tahun yang kita malas ingat-ingat lagi. Sekarang dan seterusnya, "kita" saja.

Kita = Kamu, Aku; Menuju-Nya.


Notes:
*Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy first appeared in Jane Austen's Pride & Prejudice. Mr Darcy is the central male character and Elizabeth's (second) love interest in the novel. He is an intelligent, wealthy, handsome and reserved 28-year-old man who often appears haughty or proud to strangers. He writes beautiful letters to his sister and to explain his motives for his actions to Elizabeth. With this, he finally wins Elizabeth's heart, marrying her regardless to her lack of fortune or of contacts (from: IMDB).