9.2.18

Menantikan Umar

Assalaamu'alaykum, Umar!

Sebenarnya Ambu belum tahu kamu itu laki-laki atau perempuan. Tapi berhubung Ambu sangat ngefans dengan Umar Bin Khattab, R. A. dan Umar Bin Abdul Aziz, ya sudah sementara ini Ambu panggil Umar dengan sebutan Umar, ya. Hehe. Ambu tahu nanti Umar akan menjadi orang yang tangguh dan berjiwa pemimpin, namun tetap takut kepada Allah SWT dan cinta keluarganya. Hmm tapi Apa' bilang sih sebaiknya Ambu manggil Umar dengan sebutan Kafa. Singkatan nama panjang Umar nanti. Tapi Ambu masih lebih senang manggil Umar hehe. Gak apa-apa ya?

Umar sekarang udah berusia 5 minggu 4 hari looh. Kata dokter Casa, dokternya Ambu pas lagi hamil Umar, saat ini Umar baru sebesar biji jeruk! Hihi. Ukuran Umar baru 0,9 cm saja. Tapi Umar sekarang memang lagi bikin Ambu mabok dan tiba-tiba benci sama bau kencur (literally kencur). Membayangkannya pun Ambu mual huhu. Sabar ya, Umar. Kita 'gak akan makan yang ada kencur-kencurnya dulu kok. Kita makan yang lain aja. Dari kemarin kita cuma makan apel sama buah pir. Sesekali makan kemplang. Itu loh, kerupuk Palembang yang enak banget itu. Ambu harus ngunyah terus nih biar kita gak pusing dan mual.
Ambu, Apa' dan Umar.

Untungnya, Apa' baiknya di luar batas kewajaran hehe. Walaupun sekarang Ambu dan Apa' lagi jauhan (Apa' di Bekasi, Ambu di Palembang), Apa' 'gak pernah marah-marah sama Ambu kalau Ambu lagi moody karena hormon kehamilan ini. Lagi males makan, lagi mual... Apak tetep baik dan sabar. Apa' selalu menyemangati Ambu supaya kuat dan tangguh. Supaya gak boleh kalah ama hormon, 'kan kita punya Allah SWT yang Maha Kuat, yang 'gak bisa dibandingin ama hormon hamil doang. Apa' sayang banget sama Ambu dan Umar. Alhamdulillah ya.

Tapi sebelum ini, sebetulnya Umar pernah ada di rahim Ambu lho.

22.1.18

Working Today

It feels incredibly refreshing, starting to arrive early in the office like what happened in my early years of working here (I mean, until the midyear of 2016 I still arrive at the office before 7 AM sharp). Don't get me wrong, my office has a flexible entry time ranging from 7 AM to 7.30 AM so when I say I don't arrive early, it means I arrived like 7.30 AM-ish. And then this noon I received this job-anniversary certificate, stating that I've been working here for five years.

FIVE YEARS!!

Wow! If they include those OJT year it supposed to be 6 years, no? How time flies...

Oh and so you know again, I've been stagnantly here for 4 years now. So basically I've spent most of my entire career here in Palembang. And to be honest, it equals with, growing older (and wiser? dunno) here. Like my adulthood is starting and progressing here from 24 to 28 yo of my age (I'M THAT OLD, I KNOW!). Ah.. what is it with Palembang? Sometimes it feels bleak and empty. Especially when my mood is in some kind of juggling state. Up and down and up and down. Often it felt like it was gonna break into pieces.. but it didn't.

This city has became one spot of comfort zones. Four years is not a short period. If it's a relationship then it'll be time to decide whether we should continue or just cut it.

Continue. Or Leave.

Of course it's never been an option for me, as a corporate worker whose the fate decided by those upper-level-men. But I don't know. I feel like I have a choice. By choice I mean I have another life to consider. The new one. (So basically it's not even a choice). I need to take a step and I now this time I won't be alone.

2.1.18

The Expected Uninvited

I was in the middle of rushing to catch a usual homecoming flight from Palembang to Bandung when suddenly one of my colleagues called me - a way too long one - on the phone. Because of this call, I didn't hear my name being called many times on the PA announcing they would fly soon if I didn't rush. And so just it.

I skipped the flight.

In my right hand I still had my freshly packed pempek for my family. God knows what was the history behind that unearthly box (okay, I was slipped on the wet floor - with no "caution wet floor" sign on it - with a small sick muscle and big embarrassment while exiting that pempek shop). So I was just there. Sat for a while mourning my incapability of hearing (was my ears covered with extra wax or something that moment? eww) that important thing, until I realized that something else - bigger one - was about to happen.

Artwork by Me.

201 Days Before

Karena gagal pulkam di sebuah long weekend nahas itu, akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk ke luar kamar - maksudnya, saya akan "terjebak" di sini selama tiga hari lagi dan saya harus punya kegiatan dong selain hanya tidur dan makan di dalam kamar. Jadi saya pun berencana untuk ke toko buku yang dilanjutkan dengan acara menggambar siang, dan yaah kayaknya oke juga kalau diakhiri oleh pijit refleksi (saya sama sekali gak cinta sama yang namanya pijit-memijit, namun peristiwa "jatuh" terpeleset di lantai basah di toko pempek itu mengakibatkan bahu kanan saya memar dan kaku hikss) di dekat kosan saya.

Tampak seperti rencana yang bagus, bukan?

4.12.17

Picking "You" Out of the Blue

Friendship is a funny thing. You'd just pick them randomly and think "Ah, I like this one" and then you'd just start to hang out together. (unknown)

Relationship, too.

Or should I say, the wedding lock? The marriage?


Because I did it. Or I likely did it - because I don't believe in "accidentally". I found him one day and I was like, "That's him. That's my Mr. Darcy*." LoL.
Mr. Darcy's back is my favorite back.

You know I always believe that Allah gives us His blessing always. But His gift, especially "this", they come unexpectedly. Like when we started to stop wondering who is that one person who would be trapped with us forever (lol), and finally decided to stop being a hopeless romantic. Like this one. Like "you". I'm just picking you - not a "weenie-meenie-minie-mo" picking - but in a petrifying-sudden crush way. Like, "hey I like that one, he's gonna be an eligible candidate of husband for me". And then I forgot about him for a while until one day he asked about my "whatabouts", left me wondering constantly for a very long time. But it was stopped there. We never talked at all. He never showed up again until one day, this year, he asked me that word. Cringe? Ridiculous? Unbelievable? Believe me, I'm surprised myself, too.

I didn't left my left shoe on the floor in the middle of the night after dancing with you, or stealing your roses from your mansion hoping you would pick me as your lover. But here we are.
I was picking you out of the blue. And then suddenly after years, you decided to pick me, too.